name fish.
age twenty-seven.
pronouns they/them.
big three aquarius/virgo/libra.
mbti intp.
languages en/cn.
home nyc.
hi, i'm fish!
you might recognize me from my angsty gay lolrpf on ao3! don't let the lck fics fool you, though—i'm an lcs fan first and foremost, and have been since i started following lolesports in 2013. don't ask me about lcs lore because i will hold you hostage and yap until your ears (or eyes) bleed.who are all the people mentioned in your fic notes?
the immensely talented daifukukon occasionally beta reads for me, and she's the force that makes my world go 'round! the lovely genovivas and chovycheeks are my two other muses. the three of them are the sounding boards for a lot of my fic ideas! i also run rulehends week with the one and only archiveofouroner.
additional info:
please DNI/DNF if you're under 18. my content, both on ao3 and on socials, is intended for 18+ audiences only.
anonymous questions/comments can be directed to my tumblr ask box here.
the twitter linked above is my personal account, where i post/retweet multi-fandom and music content in addition to lolesports. i do not have a separate public twitter for lolesports or rpf.
i try to avoid posting about specific fics/ships on my public twitter, but will occasionally post about rpf in the abstract.
mutuals are welcome to request to follow my private twitter, @rulhend, where i am a lot more deranged about rpf/rps and occasionally post wip snippets (wippets, if you will).
creators have blanket permission to make and publish transformative works (e.g. podfics, fanart, translations, spin-offs, etc.) of my fics. additional guidelines and further details can be found in my ao3 profile linked above.
i do not take unsolicited fic requests or suggestions.
i do not engage with antiship/proship discourse.
i am not looking for new beta readers at this time.
Published Works
| Series/Fic Title | Ship(s) | Details | Date Updated |
|---|---|---|---|
| "with something that's thicker than smoke" | rulhends endgame; established kinghends | 19k four-part series (ongoing, with two-and-a-half parts published so far); rated m/e; cigarettes as a metaphor; infidelity & homewrecking; second-chance romance; angsty as all hell; simp!ruler x depressed!lehends; eventual kinghends breakup; alternating povs | dec. 2025 |
| "arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads" | onelk | 22.6k standalone one-shot for the yellow seas fest; rated e; vampire au; angsty and unabashedly horny; from on's pov | aug. 2025 |
| "kiss my wounds, but not forever" | squid | 11.5k standalone one-shot for the yellow seas fest; rated t; matcha date; fluffy (by my standards); from sniper's pov | aug. 2025 |
| "surrendered to the fauna" | on2eus | 48.8k two-part series (on indefinite hiatus); rated e; omegaverse; very mild smut; alternating povs | feb. 2025 |
| "come home, the kettle's whistling" | on2eus/gen | 4.2k standalone one-shot; rated g; goodbye scene; can be read as platonic; from oner's pov | nov. 2024 |
Works In Progress
| Title | Ship | Details | Approx. Length |
|---|---|---|---|
| "enough discipline for the both of us" (chapter 2: "'cause i have visions in my sleep") | rulhends | COMING SOON! — second chapter of the penultimate installment in the "with something that's thicker than smoke" series (formerly known as "smoke and lace"); rated e; lehends pov; kinghends breakup; ruler is surprisingly romantic; intended to be written for RuLehends Week 2025 but then i didn't finish it in time oops | ~5k |
| TBD | it's a secret! | COMING IN JUNE 2026! — rating tbd; my entry into the yellow seas rarepair fest (to be revealed on june 6, 2026) | ~10k |
| "shed your knuckle velvet" | guria | longfic (well, long-ish); rated e; omegaverse angst & smut; guma gets benched and crashes out; copious biblical references and metaphors; guria divorce era; guma being a pastor's son irl is something that can be sooo personal; i have one chapter fully written and some more in progress, but i've lost motivation for this fic so i might just upload what i have for now and then put the fic on hiatus lol | ~70k |
| "wearing no disguise" | rulhends | final installment in the "with something that's thicker than smoke" series (formerly known as "smoke and lace"); rated e; ruler pov; ruler continues to be down bad for lehends and things go about as well as you'd expect (poorly, that is); another one of the ones i was supposed to finish for RuLehends Week 2025 but couldn't finish | ~8k |
| "your cherry thrill" | rulhends | standalone one-shot; rating tbd; literally just the plot of the mv for cherry thrill by movements, but with rulhends; yet another unfinished piece intended for RuLehends Week 2025 | ~10k |
| "i'll be your dead bird, you'll be my bloodhound" | rulhends | standalone one-shot; rated m; dystopian animal hybrids au; lehends as a game bird and ruler as a hunting dog; you guessed it, it's another unfinished one from RuLehends Week 2025 | ~15k |
| "slow down the bass" | rulhends | multi-chapter; rated e; asian-american nyc college student au; friends with benefits; bisexual frat boy ruler & cynical twink lehends; party girl jeesun as lehends's twink handler; set in the 2010s because i'm unc; cameos from some lcs/ltan players & lck ensemble; inspo & art from my beloved @chovycheeks; originally started writing it for RuLehends Week 2025 but it ended up being a bit of a behemoth so it's on the back burner for now | ~40k |
| "my summertime boy" | jojodanny | multi-chapter; rating tbd; ivy league college au mixed with beachy vacation town au; imagine "the summer i turned pretty" meets "normal people" but with new england gothic / dark academia vibes; lots of commentary on class disparities and social status | ??? |
| "sawdust in the engine" | tbd, maybe canmaker? | multi-chapter; rated m/e; canon-compliant(ish); stimulant abuse; insomnia; terrible work-life balance; commentary on the awful practices of the esports industry | ~50k |
| TBD | canmaker | longfic; rated m/e; high fantasy au; sleeping beauty retelling; political intrigue and fantasy adventuring; dual pov with non-linear timeline | ~80k |
| "i'll be like one of your girls or your homies" | sneakeos | standalone one-shot; rated e; pwp; meteos helps femboy sneaky make fansly content; will get posted for some smut event in the future | ~5k |
| untitled iris zero au | ? | i have no idea where i'm going with this one ngl lol, i just want to write something set in the iris zero universe, it'll probably be a longfic though | ??? |
Notes
wip list last updated on 4/21/2026. sorry i haven't been uploading lately, guys! i've been super busy with irl stuff so my yaoi has regrettable taken a backseat.
questions (about my fics, or otherwise) are welcome in my tumblr ask box. answers can be found in my #fish-writes tag.
please follow rpf/rps etiquette and do not share any of my fics in places where the real people could potentially see it. i discourage korean-language translations of my lck rpf fics.
guidelines for transformative works (translations, fanart, podfics, etc.) are available on my archiveofourown profile here.
i generally prefer to write character-driven angst with mature themes, minimal plot, and ambiguous/unresolved endings. i occasionally write smut but not often, since i find it really difficult. please curb your expectations accordingly. i do not take unsolicited requests or suggestions.
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LOLESPORTS
CURRENT TEAMS: #TLWIN #GENWIN
NA: tl19+24+25+26 (♡yeon♡, quid, umti, morgan, corejj); 100t25; darkwings; berserker; massu; eg22; tsm15+16+17; c914
EU: lr25; kc25+26 (yike, canna, busio); jojopyun
KR: gen22+25+26 (♡ruler♡, canyon); ns26 (kingen, lehends); z♡o♡fgk; ssg17
lcs is the only domestic region i keep up with on a regular basis, but i will occasionally tune in for lck, lec, and lpl. i primarily read/write lck rpf.
MUSIC
emo / emo-adjacent: the wonder years, modern baseball, hot mulligan, arm's length, citizen, trophy eyes, fireworks, macseal, into it over it, turnover, the front bottoms, spanish love songs, mallcops, tigers jaw, origami angel, oso oso, movements, super american, turnstile, la dispute, hands like houses, pet symmetry, saturdays at your place, pool kids, red sun, tenmonthsummer, gleemer, carly cosgrove, driveways
other: brakence, lana del rey, lucy dacus, glaive, the 1975, charli xcx, ethel cain, lorde, aries, keshi, knock2, peach pit, halsey, briston maroney, underscores, linkin park, jane remover, eden, phoebe bridgers, 2hollis, mallrat
yes, all my fic titles are song lyrics.