name fish.
age twenty-six.
pronouns they/them.
big three aquarius/virgo/libra.
mbti intp.
languages en/cn.
home usa.
hi, i'm fish!
you might recognize me from my angsty lolrpf on ao3! don't let the lck fics fool you, though—i'm an lcs fan first and foremost, and have been since i started following lolesports in 2013 (#unc). don't ever ask me about lcs lore because i will hold you hostage and yap until your ears (or eyes) bleed.who are all the people mentioned in your fic notes?
my immensely talented beta reader, daifukukon, is the force that makes my world go 'round! the lovely genovivas and chovycheeks are two of my other muses, and they're the sounding board for a lot of my ideas.
additional info:
please DNI/DNF if you're under 18. my content, both on ao3 and on socials, is intended for 18+ audiences only.
anonymous questions/comments can be directed to my tumblr ask box here.
the twitter linked above is my personal account, where i post/retweet multi-fandom and music content in addition to lolesports. i do not have a separate public twitter for lolesports or rpf.
i try to avoid posting about specific fics/ships on my public twitter, but will occasionally post about rpf in the abstract.
mutuals are welcome to request to follow my private twitter, @rulhend, where i am a lot more deranged about rpf/rps and occasionally post wip snippets (wippets, if you will).
creators have blanket permission to make and publish transformative works (e.g. podfics, fanart, translations, spin-offs, etc.) of my fics. additional guidelines and further details can be found in my ao3 profile linked above.
i do not take unsolicited fic requests or suggestions.
i do not engage with antiship/proship discourse.
i am not looking for new beta readers at this time.
Published Works
| Title | Ship | Details | Date |
|---|---|---|---|
| "arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads" | onelk | 22.6k standalone one-shot for the yellow seas fest; rated e; vampire au; angsty and extremely horny; from on's pov | aug. 2025 |
| "kiss my wounds, but not forever" | squid | 11.5k standalone one-shot for the yellow seas fest; rated t; matcha date; fluffy (by my standards); from sniper's pov | aug. 2025 |
| "with something that's thicker than smoke" | rulhends endgame, established kinghends | 13.3k four-part series (ongoing, with two parts published so far); rated m; cigarettes as a metaphor; infidelity & homewrecking; second-chance romance; angsty as all hell; alternating povs | feb. 2025 |
| "surrendered to the fauna" | on2eus | 48.8k two-part series (on indefinite hiatus); rated e; omegaverse; very mild smut; alternating povs | feb. 2025 |
| "come home, the kettle's whistling" | on2eus/gen | 4.2k standalone one-shot; rated g; goodbye scene; can be read as platonic; from oner's pov | nov. 2024 |
Works In Progress
| Title | Ship | Details | Words |
|---|---|---|---|
| "slow down the bass" | rulhends | COMING IN DEC. 2025! — multi-chapter; rated e; asian-american nyc college student au; friends with benefits; fratty ruler & cynical lehends; party girl jeesun as lehends's twink handler; set in the 2010s because i'm old; cameos from some lcs/ltan players & lck ensemble; inspo & art from my beloved @chovycheeks; written for RuLehends Week 2025 | est. ~30k |
| "enough discipline for the both of us" / "wearing no disguise" | rulhends | COMING IN DEC. 2025! — two final installments in the "with something that's thicker than smoke" series (formerly known as "smoke and lace"); rated m/e; one fic each of ruler and lehends povs; kinghends breakup; ruler continues to be down bad for lehends and things go about as well as you'd expect (poorly, that is); written for RuLehends Week 2025 | est. ~12k |
| "your cherry thrill" | rulhends | COMING IN DEC. 2025! — standalone one-shot; rating tbd; literally just the plot of the mv for cherry thrill by movements, but with rulhends; written for RuLehends Week 2025 | est. ~10k |
| "i'll be your dead bird, you'll be my bloodhound" | rulhends | COMING IN DEC. 2025! — standalone one-shot; rating tbd; dystopian animal hybrids au; lehends as a game bird and ruler as a hunting dog; written for RuLehends Week 2025 | est. ~10k |
| "shed your knuckle velvet" | guria | COMING IN 2026! — longfic; rated e; omegaverse angst & smut; guma gets benched and crashes out; copious biblical references and metaphors; guria divorce era; guma being a pastor's son irl is something that can be sooo personal | est. ~80k |
| "my summertime boy" | probably maolan but idk | multi-chapter; rating tbd; ivy league college au mixed with beachy vacation town au; imagine "the summer i turned pretty" meets "normal people" but with new england gothic / dark academia vibes; lots of commentary on class disparities and social status | ??? |
| "sawdust in the engine" | tbd, maybe canmaker? maybe jojodanny? | multi-chapter; rated m/e; canon-compliant(ish); stimulant abuse; insomnia; terrible work-life balance; commentary on the awful practices of the esports industry | est. ~50k |
| "i'll be like one of your girls or your homies" | sneakeos | standalone one-shot; rated e; pwp; meteos helps femboy sneaky make fansly content; will get posted for some smut event in the future | est. ~5k |
| untitled iris zero au | ? | i have no idea where i'm going with this one ngl lol, i just want to write something set in the iris zero universe, it'll probably be a longfic though | ??? |
Notes
wip list last updated on 11/12/2025.
questions (about my fics, or otherwise) are welcome in my tumblr ask box. answers can be found in my #fish-writes tag.
please follow rpf/rps etiquette and do not share any of my fics in places where the real people could potentially see it. i discourage korean-language translations of my lck rpf fics.
guidelines for transformative works (translations, fanart, podfics, etc.) are available on my archiveofourown profile here.
i generally prefer to write character-driven angst with mature themes, minimal plot, and ambiguous/unresolved endings. i occasionally write smut but not often, since i find it really difficult. please curb your expectations accordingly. i do not take unsolicited requests or suggestions.
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zg24 (catdespair)
ls2 (catdespair, even more.)
LOLESPORTS
CURRENT TEAMS: #TLWIN #GENWIN
NA: tl19+24+25+26 (♡yeon♡, corejj, morgan, umti); dsg25 (exyu, darkwings); 100t25 (quid, sniper, dhokla); berserker; massu; eg22; tsm15+16; c914
EU: lr25; kc25 (yike, canna); jojopyun; busio
KR: gen22+25+26 (♡ruler♡, canyon, kiin); ns26 (kingen, lehends); cuzz; z♡o♡fgk; ssg17
lcs is the only domestic region i keep up with on a regular basis, but i will occasionally tune in for lck, lec, and lpl. i primarily read/write lck rpf.
MUSIC
emo / emo-adjacent: the wonder years, modern baseball, hot mulligan, arm's length, citizen, trophy eyes, fireworks, macseal, into it over it, turnover, the front bottoms, spanish love songs, mallcops, tigers jaw, origami angel, oso oso, movements, super american, turnstile, la dispute, hands like houses, pet symmetry, saturdays at your place, pool kids, red sun, tenmonthsummer, gleemer, carly cosgrove, driveways
other: brakence, lana del rey, lucy dacus, glaive, the 1975, charli xcx, ethel cain, lorde, aries, keshi, knock2, peach pit, halsey, briston maroney, underscores, linkin park, jane remover, eden, phoebe bridgers, 2hollis, mallrat
yes, all my fic titles are song lyrics.