name fish.
age twenty-six.
pronouns they/them.
big three aquarius/virgo/libra.
mbti intp.
languages en/cn.
home usa.
hi, i'm fish!
you might recognize me from my angsty lolrpf on ao3! don't let the lck fics fool you, though—i'm an lcs fan first and foremost, and have been since i started following lolesports in 2013 (#unc). don't ever ask me about lcs lore because i will hold you hostage and yap until your ears bleed.who are all the people mentioned in your fic notes?
my wonderful beta reader, daifukukon, is the force that makes my world go 'round! the lovely genovivas and chovycheeks are two of my other muses, and they're the sounding board for a lot of my ideas.
additional info:
please DNI/DNF if you're under 18. my content, both on ao3 and on socials, is intended for 18+ audiences only.
anonymous questions/comments can be directed to my tumblr ask box here.
the twitter linked above is my personal account, where i post/retweet multi-fandom and music content in addition to lolesports. i do not have a separate public twitter for lolesports or rpf.
i try to avoid posting about specific fics/ships on my public twitter, but will occasionally post about rpf in the abstract.
mutuals are welcome to request to follow my private twitter, @rulhend, where i am a lot more deranged about rpf/rps and occasionally post wip snippets (wippets, if you will).
i do not take unsolicited fic requests or suggestions.
i do not engage with antiship/proship discourse.
i am not looking for new beta readers at this time.
Published Works
| Title | Ship | Details | Date |
|---|---|---|---|
| "arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads" | onelk | 22.6k standalone one-shot for the yellow seas fest; rated e; vampire au; angsty and extremely horny; from on's pov | aug. 2025 |
| "kiss my wounds, but not forever" | squid | 11.5k standalone one-shot for the yellow seas fest; rated t; matcha date; fluffy (by my standards); from sniper's pov | aug. 2025 |
| "with something that's thicker than smoke" | rulhends endgame, established kinghends | 13.3k four-part series (ongoing, with two parts published so far); rated m; cigarettes as a metaphor; infidelity & homewrecking; second-chance romance; angsty as all hell; alternating povs | feb. 2025 |
| "surrendered to the fauna" | on2eus | 48.8k two-part series (on indefinite hiatus); rated e; omegaverse; very mild smut; alternating povs | feb. 2025 |
| "come home, the kettle's whistling" | on2eus/gen | 4.2k standalone one-shot; rated g; goodbye scene; can be read as platonic; from oner's pov | nov. 2024 |
Works In Progress
| Title | Ship | Details | Words |
|---|---|---|---|
| "slow down the bass" | rulhends | COMING IN DECEMBER 2025! — multi-chapter; rated e; asian-american nyc college student au; friends with benefits; fratty ruler & cynical lehends; party girl jeesun as lehends's twink handler; set in the 2010s because i'm old; cameos from some lcs/ltan players & lck ensemble; inspo & art from my beloved @chovycheeks; will be posted for RuLehends Week 2025 | est. ~40k |
| "before i even knew your birthday" / "wearing no disguise" | rulhends | COMING IN DECEMBER 2025! — two final installments in the "with something that's thicker than smoke" series (formerly known as "smoke and lace"); rated m/e; one fic each of ruler and lehends povs; kinghends breakup; ruler continues to be down bad for lehends and things go about as well as you'd expect (poorly, that is); will be posted for RuLehends Week 2025 | est. ~12k |
| "world explodes and i'm with you still" | rulhends | COMING IN DECEMBER 2025! — standalone one-shot; rating tbd; literally just the plot of the mv for cherry thrill by movements, but with rulhends; will be posted for RuLehends Week 2025 | est. ~10k |
| "shed your knuckle velvet" | guria | COMING SOON! — longfic; rated e; omegaverse angst & smut; guma gets benched and crashes out; copious biblical references and metaphors; guria divorce era; guma being a pastor's son irl is something that can be sooo personal | est. ~80k |
| "my summertime boy" | probably maolan but idk | multi-chapter; rating tbd; ivy league college au mixed with beachy vacation town au; imagine "the summer i turned pretty" meets "normal people" but with new england gothic / dark academia vibes; lots of commentary on class disparities and social status | ??? |
| "sawdust in the engine" | tbd, maybe canmaker? maybe jojodanny? | multi-chapter; rated m/e; canon-compliant(ish); stimulant abuse; insomnia; terrible work-life balance; commentary on the awful practices of the esports industry | est. ~50k |
| untitled iris zero au | ? | i have no idea where i'm going with this one ngl lol, i just want to write something set in the iris zero universe, it'll probably be a longfic though | ??? |
Notes
wip list last updated on 10/1/2025.
questions (about my fics, or otherwise) are welcome in my tumblr ask box. answers can be found in my #fish-writes tag.
please follow rpf/rps etiquette and do not share any of my fics in places where the real people could potentially see it.
translation rules are on my ao3 profile here.
i tend to write character-driven angst with mature themes, not a lot of plot, and ambiguous/unhappy endings; please don't expect or request otherwise.
F1
♡aa23♡
yt22
op81
zg24 (catdespair)
ls2 (catdespair, even more.)
LOLESPORTS
NA: tl19+25 (♡yeon♡, corejj); massu; eg22; tsm15+16; c914
EU: lr25; kc25 (yike, canna); jojopyun; poby
KR: gen22+25 (♡ruler♡, lehends); z♡O♡fgk; viper; berserker; ssg17
CN: blg25; peyz; meiko; crisp
lcs is the only domestic region i keep up with on a regular basis, but i will occasionally tune in for lck, lec, and lpl. i primarily write lck rpf.
MUSIC
emo / emo-adjacent: the wonder years, modern baseball, hot mulligan, arm's length, citizen, trophy eyes, fireworks, macseal, into it over it, turnover, the front bottoms, spanish love songs, mallcops, tigers jaw, origami angel, oso oso, movements, super american, turnstile, la dispute, hands like houses, pet symmetry, saturdays at your place, pool kids, red sun, tenmonthsummer, gleemer, carly cosgrove, driveways
other: brakence, lana del rey, lucy dacus, glaive, the 1975, charli xcx, ethel cain, lorde, aries, keshi, knock2, peach pit, halsey, briston maroney, underscores, linkin park, jane remover, eden, phoebe bridgers, 2hollis, mallrat
yes, all my fic titles are song lyrics.